A lot can change in a month. Heck, a lot can change in a day.
Golgonooza has passed for the last time. My cast was incredibly successful. Their transformation was impressive to say the VERY least.
I've been rejected by VCU (though the visit was incredible) and was given the suggestion "that (I) need to take a few years to get (my) feet wet in the real world before coming into (their) graduate program. (They) would suggest that (I) work in a non-academic theatre environment for a while..." I'm waiting on two more but since I haven't heard back from them at all yet, I'm thinking they're just waiting to send out rejection letters until those offered spots say they accept. I knew going into this it may take as long as three years before I am accepted. I have no choice but to wait. So... I'm waiting.
People will talk. They'll have their opinions, their "I told you so"s and "I knew it all along"s. I can still hear the echo of a person five kisses back saying: "You are talentless." Ten schools agree.
I may be talentless but I'm also determined... and perhaps foolish enough to continue persuing things that bring me incredible joy.
Keep your head down, your chin up, your nose clean. What have you.
I don't know where I'm going now. This was my plan of action for next year and I have no back up (which is a mistake - obviously). I keep asking (without reply)...
"What am I supposed to do?"
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Whoever called you talentless was a fool. There is something to be said for going out and living a bit before pursuing your art, though. Two years out of college and my writing has definitely improved. I'm not sure what to DO with it anymore, but that's hardly a reason to stop. This is the life you've chosen--very few people make it on the first shot, you've just got to keep at it. Keep your chin up.
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