A lot can change in a month. Heck, a lot can change in a day.
Golgonooza has passed for the last time. My cast was incredibly successful. Their transformation was impressive to say the VERY least.
I've been rejected by VCU (though the visit was incredible) and was given the suggestion "that (I) need to take a few years to get (my) feet wet in the real world before coming into (their) graduate program. (They) would suggest that (I) work in a non-academic theatre environment for a while..." I'm waiting on two more but since I haven't heard back from them at all yet, I'm thinking they're just waiting to send out rejection letters until those offered spots say they accept. I knew going into this it may take as long as three years before I am accepted. I have no choice but to wait. So... I'm waiting.
People will talk. They'll have their opinions, their "I told you so"s and "I knew it all along"s. I can still hear the echo of a person five kisses back saying: "You are talentless." Ten schools agree.
I may be talentless but I'm also determined... and perhaps foolish enough to continue persuing things that bring me incredible joy.
Keep your head down, your chin up, your nose clean. What have you.
I don't know where I'm going now. This was my plan of action for next year and I have no back up (which is a mistake - obviously). I keep asking (without reply)...
"What am I supposed to do?"
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Michelina:
From my experiences I feel comfortable is saying, "None of us really know where we are going. However, we do know where we have been. We all have an sense of where we are right now and have a direction we want to move in. But, there are many forks in the road ahead."
When I look back at the paths my life has taken, I see it as: first, my trying to use the gifts I have been given by God; second, doing the best I could with the things that life has sent my way; and third, trying to learn from everything that happens to me. I think this is the way God uses and teaches us.
Most of the time you will not need to blaze a new trail. You will find that taking the fork that makes the most sense at the time works best. I see this as guidance by the Holy Spirit. Do not agonize at the possibility of taking the wrong fork. If we take the wrong path, the Holy Spirit will eventually be able to guide us back to the right one.
God bless and have a great Easter!!
May all of your life be gently guided by His hand,
Joe Bruno
P.S. Joan and I are taking the train to New York City on Wednesday and returning next Monday. I notice that you went there last month. Do you have any recommendations for us? (We like NYC because of all the different things we can do there.)
Whoever called you talentless was a fool. There is something to be said for going out and living a bit before pursuing your art, though. Two years out of college and my writing has definitely improved. I'm not sure what to DO with it anymore, but that's hardly a reason to stop. This is the life you've chosen--very few people make it on the first shot, you've just got to keep at it. Keep your chin up.
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