Monday, April 06, 2009

Just Hold On

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.”

It'll get better.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

And Why Do You Sing Hallelujah If It Means Nothing To You?

A lot can change in a month. Heck, a lot can change in a day.

Golgonooza has passed for the last time. My cast was incredibly successful. Their transformation was impressive to say the VERY least.

I've been rejected by VCU (though the visit was incredible) and was given the suggestion "that (I) need to take a few years to get (my) feet wet in the real world before coming into (their) graduate program. (They) would suggest that (I) work in a non-academic theatre environment for a while..." I'm waiting on two more but since I haven't heard back from them at all yet, I'm thinking they're just waiting to send out rejection letters until those offered spots say they accept. I knew going into this it may take as long as three years before I am accepted. I have no choice but to wait. So... I'm waiting.

People will talk. They'll have their opinions, their "I told you so"s and "I knew it all along"s. I can still hear the echo of a person five kisses back saying: "You are talentless." Ten schools agree.
I may be talentless but I'm also determined... and perhaps foolish enough to continue persuing things that bring me incredible joy.

Keep your head down, your chin up, your nose clean. What have you.

I don't know where I'm going now. This was my plan of action for next year and I have no back up (which is a mistake - obviously). I keep asking (without reply)...

"What am I supposed to do?"