So I will bear my folly back and follow you no further...

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bro·ken /ˈbroʊkən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[broh-kuhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–verb
1.
pp. of break. –adjective
2.
reduced to fragments; fragmented.
3.
ruptured; torn; fractured.
4.
not functioning properly; out of working order.
5.
Meteorology. (of sky cover) being more than half, but not totally, covered by clouds. Compare scattered (def. 4).
6.
changing direction abruptly: The fox ran in a broken line.
7.
fragmentary or incomplete: a broken ton of coal weighing 1,500 pounds.
8.
infringed or violated: A broken promise is a betrayal of trust.
9.
interrupted, disrupted, or disconnected: After the phone call he returned to his broken sleep.
10.
weakened in strength, spirit, etc.: His broken health was due to alcoholism.
11.
tamed, trained, or reduced to submission: The horse was broken to the saddle.
12.
imperfectly spoken, as language: She still speaks broken English.
13.
spoken in a halting or fragmentary manner, as under emotional strain: He uttered a few broken words of sorrow.
14.
disunited or divided: Divorce results in broken families.
15.
not smooth; rough or irregular: We left the plains and rode through broken country.
16.
ruined; bankrupt: the broken fortunes of his family.
17.
Papermaking, Printing. a quantity of paper of less than 500 or 1000 sheets.
—Related forms
bro·ken·ly, adverb
bro·ken·ness, noun
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pain /peɪn/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[peyn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
physical suffering or distress, as due to injury, illness, etc.
2.
a distressing sensation in a particular part of the body: a back pain.
3.
mental or emotional suffering or torment: I am sorry my news causes you such pain.
4.
pains,
a.
laborious or careful efforts; assiduous care: Great pains have been taken to repair the engine perfectly.
b.
the suffering of childbirth.
5.
Informal. an annoying or troublesome person or thing. –verb (used with object)
6.
to cause physical pain to; hurt.
7.
to cause (someone) mental or emotional pain; distress: Your sarcasm pained me. –verb (used without object)
8.
to have or give pain. —Idioms
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I was told I have the ability to sing like Amy Lee from Evanescence, once. I was told I was beautiful, once. I was told I look better without make-up, once. Once, once, once upon a time.

Everyone matters to me. If they are a part of my life, or ever were - they matter to me.

I'm broken and in pain, but so was Job. He got through. I need to find God again...

Words can't describe the past month. It would be impossible.

I feel exhausted and ill and don't know how I'll get through the next minute, hour, day...but I will.

Pray for me, if you have a moment. I know I can be safe in God's hands.

Love, me.